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ericawalker4@gmail.com — Fri, 11 May 2007 22:46:25 GMT

ericawalker4@gmail.com — Fri, 11 May 2007 22:43:08 GMT

dear somebody,
answering my phone calls wouldnt be on my list of favorite things to do either:
you have become too good for me.
with love,

ericawalker4@gmail.com — Wed, 11 Apr 2007 18:40:47 GMT

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ericawalker4@gmail.com — Tue, 20 Feb 2007 06:09:00 GMT

nothing's so lucid as the promise of dreams,
but these pills we found just make me sleep.
there's nothing quite so pure as the written word my dear,
so lets have ourselves a little poem
until the will to speak loses urgency.
our animal indecency in print is so blasé.

ericawalker4@gmail.com — Mon, 05 Feb 2007 22:14:51 GMT

i dreamt that my house was an island and the island was a house. intertwined into a median without a roof or walls, but simply layouts and objects. then i convinced my family to kill themselves.

it was disturbing.

ericawalker4@gmail.com — Mon, 22 Jan 2007 00:15:29 GMT

So, im taking a leave of absence from work. my mom is all hostile about it. and im sick of it.
shes pressuring me about insurance and paying for the car etc. and im just fucking sick of paying, of money. she gets almost $1000 a month free from the government FROM EACH GODDAMN KID LIVING IN HER HOUSE, she only works three days a week, and she has the nerve to tell me its going above and beyond to just take $60 a month out of MY FATHERS social security money. im so fucking sick of her. i dont ask for a goddamn thing and when i need time to figure things out she gets all up on my back. for fuck sake i was working 35 hours a week and perhaps i should not whine about it, but honestly. im so fucking sick of this house. im sick of getting in trouble for staying up past 10 o clock im sick of her not trusting me im sick of asking her "if i was acting the way kristen is, what would you do to me" and i know the answer. i know i wouldnt get a goddamn thing. i wouldnt have my license i would be in wilderness. im so fucking asijgdnkjzvxc

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she says i need to earn respect, to be treated like an adult. and me earning it is only adulthood at her convenience like listening to everything she says without getting upset which in her book is "maturity", im sick of her hiring baby sitters because she doesnt trust me home alone for a night. the "adulthood" and "respect" and "freedom" that she gives me is allowing me to work, giving me car payments - a taste of the real world. ughh and yesss thats the "real world" but fuck man, im just asking to be given a little bit of freedom and acknowledgement for my maturity. i listened to kim freak out about her mom saying that she cannot stay the night, if i talked to my mother like she did she would call the cops on me. and i wouldnt freak out on her because i know that i would suffer the consequences (granted im a little more rational than kim). whatever, this is my life. i should stop comparing.

not to mention the upcoming $450 expense that if i even asked her to pay for.... my life would be over.

i have not found happiness in this world, and i hate reading other peoples ljs and thinking "stop searching and just be, thereinliesyouranswer" but no! I AM NOT HAPPY. AND I DONT UNDERSTAND. I AM NEVER HAPPY. AND I DONT UNDERSTAND.

and if not enough about this. Sam might not come tomorrow... and although things arent best with us he is the one person that knows everything about me and makes me feel content with myself and if not... just that i am loved. and im sick of the distance, im sick of being alone. and im alone because i dont care about fixing things with my mother and i dont know........................... i dont want to lose him because of me..........................................................

ericawalker4@gmail.com — Sun, 14 Jan 2007 01:53:57 GMT

dont like our generations personality. then again, i am one of them. are we different from the last?

my mom just broke my perfect (eating) bowl. its okay though because it wasnt microwave safe and everyone knows a perfect bowl must withstand gamma, x, and microwaves

im very unimpressed.

my mom told me kristen and hannah were bashing me last nite... that sucks.

it also sucks that both of them used to be so close to me, and now when they see me they smile and make small talk (mostly hannah) and then openly make fun of who i am and my clothing. oh well, wheres the loyalty man? i actually wouldnt be surprised it a lot of people bashed me behind my back. but thats okay.

The Devil is Alive in Ms. Jones.

ericawalker4@gmail.com — Sun, 07 Jan 2007 16:02:56 GMT

MS JONES IS A HXC BITCH THAT DESERVES TO GET RAPED BY MR BRAGG.
SHE SERIOUSLY LACKS CHARACTER, HONESTY, AND INTEGRITY.
I HATE GOING BACK TO HYDE. HOW CAN THEY TRUELY LIVE WITH THEMSELVES??
in all honesty i was polite, i held my tongue, i smiled. before i even entered the cafeteria she shook her head violently at my arrival and threw me off campus within thirty seconds. and the look in allies eyes? how can she claim to be a caring person with the best interests of her students at heart?

maybe im missing something.

Ms. Rachel Jones,

You have my sincerest apologies if I placed you in an awkward
situation this morning. After all, I doubt you enjoyed saying no to
Allison and causing her any sadness. I apologize further because I did
not know that Allison had a visitor on Saturday. I am confident that
your decision were in the best interests of Allison. My visit this
morning, I regret to say, should have been announced, but I wanted to
surprise Allison because I love her and with that I wanted to be there
to support her. With that said I also would like to say I have no
intention of staying away. If you truly object with this I would also
like an explanation as to why. I understand the school and can
comprehend any logical reasons.
I also hope that hope that the decision this morning had nothing to do
with your personal opinion of me. If so it saddens me for you must not
know who I am if you deny any visits for Allison. I am not the one
that causes Allison trouble, and I find it odd that you would allow
Rachel Pheiffer (i don't know how to spell her name) to be in contact
with Allison. I am not the one that does drugs, I am not the one that
gave Allison cocaine on New Years Eve. I can only hope that you will
honestly judge my character and through that you will permit me to
visit Allison.

Sincerely,

Erica Walker.

ericawalker4@gmail.com — Fri, 05 Jan 2007 18:40:15 GMT

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